Who I Am Not
During the past few weeks I realized that I needed to
reconcile, who I was, who I am, and who others expect me to be. What I learned
was this, my ability to be all things to all people has diminished. I stripped
away the pretense that I held, and took an honest look at the woman I am now.
Growing up I cared little for what others thought of me,
that feeling has only become stronger with age. The standards that I set for
myself are high. Yet they are not the expectations that I hold for others. That
would be ludicrous.
People want you to feel what they feel. It’s a part of human nature. We believe
that if others can love the way we love, or hurt the way we hurt, that
everything will work out in our favour.
Unfortunately that is not how life flows. Whether or not we like it, we
are all unique, and how we acknowledge our own standards for life is in direct
correlation to how we feel about ourselves.
The ability to find balance between who we are, and who we
wish to be, is derived through acceptance. Acknowledge both the good and ugly
experiences that have shaped you. As we age, we tend to gloss over the ugly so
that it molds to our idea of what should have happened. That is a true
disservice. Accepting things we
have done wrong, is the only way to move forward and learn. It may not be
pleasant, but it is necessary.
There are only two people that I am accountable to, the
first is myself, and the second is my daughter. Though there are many people
who I love and respect, I know that if I can look at my reflection in the
mirror and stare into the eyes of my daughter without regret, shame or fear,
then I am living a life that I can be proud of. Because once regret, shame and
fear are negated, love will fill up the empty space.
I challenge you to do the same in your own lives.
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